Oh Hello Again

Sooooooooooooooo…I have not posted in quite some time. Partially due to being super busy, but also partially to being lazy. Not too many changes have occurred in my life. I did get a 2nd job at the YMCA so Monday, Tuesday, and Thursday I intern from 8:15a-3:45p and pretty much go straight into working at the Y from 4:40p-9p. I also work Saturdays from 1:30-6p. It is not to have extra income but its definitely tiring, especially during the week. Then on top of that I try to have a life.

I’m just coming back from our holiday break, which was nice, but I never feel completely rested. I’m busy when I go back to my parents house trying to see everyone and spend time with my family. And then of course I get sick upon returning to schenectady. Seriously my body does not adjust to change well.

In other news I moved rooms in my apartment. I now reside 2 rooms down the hall and have gained about a foot more of space and a larger closet, AND I LOVE IT. Its amazing the difference a little more room can make. I even hung up my art (no I had not done that yet) and it looks like someone actually lives in this room. I packed up and moved my other room in literally 2.5 hours, by myself. My landlord was impressed.

Other updates- My internship supervisor offered for me to stay here over the summer and be the music therapist at the Wildwood camp. Though my plan was to move back in with my parents, but I would be stupid not to seize this opportunity. I love Wildwood, I think they are an amazing agency, so if I can stay working for them of course I am going to.

Well that may be about it for now. I am definitely going to try and update more, but you know my schedule now. Hope everyone is doing well in the new year!!


1 month down, 8 to go!

Haven’t posted in a while, I guess thats the consequence of trying to have a life…and pure laziness. Tomorrow marks the end of my first month at internship and it has been AWESOME. Seriously, I wake up in the morning (which is the hardest part of my day) and am motivated by the pure fact that I actually enjoy what I get to wake up and do. I don’t know many people who really love their jobs, but I really love this one (and its just an internship). The kids are great, the staff is great, my supervisor is great, the entire school and agency are great. There are not enough positive adjectives to appropriately convey how great it is lol. 

Since my last post I have gotten to lead an individual and group MT session, as well as lead the high school chorus by myself. Of course nothing is ever going to go to plan in these sessions, but overall they were amazing experiences. Its funny too because normally these kinds of things would make me really nervous, but I was not nervous going into any of them. Its such a big change from over the summer doing my practicum at a hospital and I felt that I was going to be a failure. For real, by the end of the summer I was so beat down that it made me question if I would ever succeed as a music therapist. But now, being here, I know that this is what I am supposed to do. I totally dork out about it too, but I love it. I actually like looking at student goals and objectives and figuring out what I can do in music to help the student achieve them. I like making lesson plans and coming up with new activities and songs. I have still been observing a lot which is great because I am building my repertoire of activities. But I cannot wait to really start on my own and challenge myself to come up with new and exciting activities for the kids. 

I have also been doing some work for my official internship orientation by interviewing different department heads throughout the school and the Wildwood agency. So far I have talked with Occupational Therapy, Physical Therapy, Speech and Language, and also the director of Adult Education. What I have found is that really everyone is working towards the same goal, to help each child reach their fullest, independent potential. Independence is really the word that is most frequently thrown around, because with greater independence comes the ability to function better within a community, have friends, be social, and really be in control many aspects of their own life. The adult education program at Wildwood alone services 150 individuals with classes from crock pot cooking to balancing your checkbook and managing a bank account. I actually think those are some classes I would personally benefit from. 

Speaking of adult ed classes, my Jammin Band class is finally getting into a good groove (ha punny). Unfortunately one student left but it has opened up the group so much and the energy is much more positive. Last week was country week and each student got to request a country song to listen to and we took turns playing along with them, trying to focus on the rhythm. The week before that we shared our favorite songs. And this week is pop week. I’m excited to see what songs the students will bring to the table. The class was also shortened to an hour which is such a better amount of time. An hour and a half was just too long and gave too much opportunity for awkward time. There are only 2 more classes after tonight, I think I will actually miss the class!

Other than work and internship I have been finding time for myself. This past weekend I visited my best friends in NYC and had soooo much fun, even though nothing went as planned. Friday night the plan was to go to my sisters halloween party in Brooklyn, but by the time I got there and my friend got off work we were too tired to make the hour long trip to Bushwick. Then on Saturday night we were going to go to a Halloween party at Webster Hall where my friend knew the DJ. But of course it snowed like crazy all day and our one adventure into the snow did not go so well, so we scrapped that. Then on Sunday I was supposed to leave but was feeling sick and then it got dark so I made the executive safety decision to stay another night. Things that did go well though were the drive there on the Taconic Parkway. It was beautiful! The perfect fall day for driving, paired with awesome music. I honestly could have driven another hour and been happy. I managed to drive into the city and park with minimal cussing and screaming in my car, so thats a plus. We ate at this adorable bakery in Harlem called Kitchenette. The waiter had to love us since we ordered like everything. I got gingerbread pancakes with pumpkin butter and whipped cream on top. Needless to say they made my taste-buds very happy. Then on our way out we ordered bakery food for home and I got a slice of rainbow sprinkle cake. Again, too good for words. We also visited a place called 1,2,3, Burger, Shot, Beer. $1-Sliders, $2 shots, $3 beers. You really cannot go wrong with this formula. You also cannot go wrong at Rudys where you get a free hotdog with every drink. Why do I not live in the city again? In Sophie and Randy’s apartment? With the cat Mabel? All in all it was a successful weekend no matter what. Only downside was missing the kids dressed up Halloween at school. It might have been a cuteness overload though, so maybe its for the best. 

Now after my weekend of food I am focusing on health for this month. This may also have to do with a competition I am in with my father. Whoever does not reach their goal weight by Thanksgiving must by the other one a drink. I think its a fair trade. So for the rest of this month I will be hitting the gym hard and eating light. I believe I may hate this month, but after it I should be back on track. Sometimes you need a shock to your system to re-balance it. So no more fast food, no more sweets, and not as much drinking (lets face it, there’s not much to do in Schenectady). We shall see how this goes…


Ug Grown up Life

The thing I hate most about being “grown up” is money. I doubt I am the first person to ever say this. But seriously living from paycheck to paycheck is not working out. I was supposed to go to Boston this past weekend but I had to make the tough, but financially smart choice to not go. When estimated I would need at lest $200 for the round trip drive, tolls, parking for the weekend, and inevitably restaurants and bars. It just was not going to work out. This weekend coming up though my plan is to go to NYC, luckily I get paid on Friday, so the goal is not to spend any money this week. Yeah we’ll see how that goes…I need a money coach.

This past week at work was great, as usual. I observed sessions, got to watch an assessment, and did 2 different training’s. On Tuesday I listened to this dude Derrick Dufresne speak. He was the kind of speaker who told stories so it did not feel so much like an informational speech, and came across more inspirational. The point he brought up that has made me think over the past week is compliance versus quality. Doing just enough versus doing the most you can. The next day I listened to a training on teaching social skills. I wish I could have taken this class before starting to teach my Wednesday night Jammin Band classes.

But this week Jammin Band actually went pretty well. Unfortunately one of the students dropped the class, but it was not at the advanced level he wanted and I understood that. Its tough but with so many different instrumental levels and social skill levels there is only so much I can do with the class. This week went so much smoother! We started with the one student who can play keyboard improvising and then had each other student take turns playing a percussion instrument along with him. Then we ended the class playing along with the favorite song of each student. We also changed the class from an hour and a half to 1 hour which feels like a better amount of time. 

Over the weekend there of course was karaoke which was awesome as always, but my car also broke, which is not so awesome. Luckily it is only one of the plastic pieces that helps the gears change and not the transmission. But the clutch is really weak right now and going to die soon anyways, so that will be a fun event to look forward to in the future. Hopefully it does not decide to completely break on the way to NY this Friday.

This week at work I will start doing Hello Songs (which starts the groups), I will have my first individual session with a student, lead the high school chorus, and run a group by myself! Its scary, exciting, challenging, and awesome all at once. But I feel ready for it. I’m excited to take on more responsibility and really start working with the students!




Levon Helm!

My good friend from Boston, Casey, come up to visit this past weekend. It was great! I took her visit as an opportunity to try out some of the restaurants in the area I have been wanting to go to. I also took her to a bar and made her sing karaoke, luckily she is a singer so she does not hate me for making her karaoke. I also took her to her first frat house ever on Friday. Its funny how her and I were both stunned at what a “real college” looked like. Berklee is seriously a different world and not like a normal college at all. Saturday we went to a classy 2pm breakfast at Denny’s and drove through the Historic District. I had not really taken the time to do so, so again her visit was a perfect opportunity. 

While she was here she started telling me all about her efforts with Occupy Boston and organizing a student March through the city. We talked a lot about what the occupy movement was about and she definitely got me more interested. I generally hate politics, but think its important to stay up to date with everything. We spent a little time watching the livestream of Occupy Wall Street and it was interesting seeing their peaceful face-off with the NYPD. Also, they may be the smartest people ever for thinking up the “people mic.” How has no one ever thought of this? Seriously its so simple, yet so effective. 

Then on Sunday we took on a big adventure in heading to Hurley, NY to see Levon Helm from The Band give a free concert. The concert was at a Gills Farm Stand, literally a farm-stand on the side of Rt. 209. It was a beautiful drive on a nice fall day. The trees are really amazing right now. Despite some GPS trouble we finally got there around 3pm and promptly ate nachos and hot dogs. We did not realize how big this event was but there were a couple hundred people there all form Levon Helm. It was an interesting mix of people including hippies with long haired children, Brooklyn style hipsters, old stoners, and more. Levon Helm’s band was AWESOME. Amazing vocalists and musicians! They played awesome folk/gospel/rock songs for about 2 hours and ended with “The Weight.” I have not seen live music in a while and now I just want to see more. I forgot how great it was to see a really good band perform. At the end of the day we were exhausted but filled with music happiness, so the 1.5 hour drive back to Schenectady was not too bad. Luckily the rain held out until we got on the shuttle bus to get back to our car. 

All in all it was a great weekend and I am so happy that Casey could come! Next weekend I am headed to Boston and I am counting down the days (4). Pictures and video’s from the Hurley adventure to follow.


The Facts

The unfortunate part about being a music therapist, or working the special education population in general is that sometimes you have to face the sad facts that a child may not progress as far as you want them to. In a team meeting today a discussion came up about a student who is regressing. Just 2 years ago she could walk and talk, and now at the age of 12 she no longer talks or makes sounds and is pretty much at the mental capacity of a 6-9 month old. And her prognosis is that she will only regress further, possibly not even being able to walk anymore. 

Then there are those other students who have such terrible behaviors and will get so upset that they will bite themselves and continuously bang their head on the floor and hurt themselves and others. And you cannot for the life of yourself figure out exactly why. At least with some students you know what triggers them, but for other the triggers are still unknown and therefor you don’t know how to avoid them. 

But then there are awesome parts of the jobs like getting to watch how happy kids are in music. And discover who has perfect pitch and who can sing or harmonize or keep a beat really well. Thats the stuff I love and when you get to see a kid break out of their shell just a little and vocalize into a microphone its really all you need in your day. 

Other than work things are ok. Some bumps in my personal life, but not everything can be perfect. Hopefully it will smooth over soon. Besides that I have had a weird stomach ache for like a week. Don’t know what that is about and I hate going to the doctor (and could not get an appointment anyway), so hopefully this will just pass. 


1 week down

So I have now officially completed my 1st week of internship! I got to observe classes all week and this week I am doing informal observations for classes. Which is basically breaking each activity down and identifying what need areas it was addressing. I’m also going to go through some more orientation by interviewing the heads of each department from OT, PT, Speech, and Social Work? I think I forgot one, or got one wrong. I’m also finding out who some of my individual students will be and some of the classes that will be under my case load or that I will be co-leading. It’s been really interesting for me to see the kids files and IEP’s and identify the goals they are working and start developing ideas of activities that can help work towards them. I have also gotten to attend team meetings in different classrooms where they discuss students and the interventions they are using and how things can be altered or changed completely help with the students growth. So that is what I have been doing so far.

In the adult education class that I teach I am still struggling a little. Not only are all the students on different levels of the spectrum, they all are at different (or no) musical level, and now I’m realizing that the age difference also is playing a role. It’s tough when the youngest student is 18 and the oldest is in their 30’s and definitely on the higher end of the spectrum. There is a big maturity difference. The be ginning of last class just felt like a mess with a mash of instruments all playing completely different things. I tired breaking the group up into 2 and putting the more musically inclined kids together to work on a project and then tired to lead the other group in a songwriting activity. That was an ok idea but still not going the way I wanted it to go. Finally at the end of the group I put one kid on piano and had everyone else on percussion working on tempo and dynamics. It’s so much easier when everyone is on non-tone instruments. But of course not everyone is happy with that because they want to be playing their primary instruments. I guess tomorrow I’m going to try more of the percussion/ 1 melody instrument jamming and then go from there.

Over the weekend my friend Emily from home (who I have known since middle school) came and visited me! She attended college at Union so she knew some people and also brought some other friends with her. FINALLY a weekend where I was not lame the whole time. On Friday we sang karaoke and visited the creepy biker bar down my street. On Saturday we hung out at a Union house and just had an overall good time. Needless to say parts of the weekend are a little bit fuzzy but it was so nice to actually feel like I had friends (that is so depressing to say). Next weekend my friend Casey from Boston is coming and I am so excited! I love friends!!  


Of life, how cruel you can be lol.
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Of life, how cruel you can be lol.

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1st Internship Journal Entry

So my official internship begins on Monday. My first assignment was a journal entry about what I have observed substitute teaching in the classrooms. In the last couple entries I have talked about how much I have learned this past month, so I thought I would share this journal entry assignment with you to give you an idea of what I really have learned!

¨     When directing students simple language is used. Depending on the verbal level of the student directions can range from full sentences to direct one-word requests.

¨     Within some of the classrooms I noticed that there was not a lot of processing time given to students. Once a direction was made they were expected to do it immediately. This was not the case in all the classes though. Many of the teachers knew which students needed a longer processing time and would inform me at the beginning of the day.

¨     Over the course of the month I noticed many different behaviors ranging from explosive and destructive to quiet and self involved. Examples of explosive or destructive behaviors include screaming, biting, pinching, hitting/kicking, and self-injurious activity. More self-involved behaviors included rocking, tipping objects, and scripting. These examples are two extremes, however there are behaviors in-between such as purposeful inappropriate talk, specific repetitive rituals and routines, obsessions. I found that a lot of the more aggressive behaviors were triggered by change. A change in the student’s regular routine, or even just the transition from one activity to another, could trigger massive tantrums. I also observed that in some cases a lack of communication would also be a trigger for behaviors. Students would get upset and frustrated when an adult, or even another student, did not understand what they wanted or needed or when things did not go their way.

¨     Behaviors were managed in a number of ways. In certain cases I was advised to completely ignore a student’s behaviors since they were specifically seeking attention. In other cases there were certain repercussions for a specific behavior such as isolating the student every time that behavior was exhibited. For more explosive behaviors more extreme measures sometimes had to be taken, such as implementing restraints and isolating students in the safe rooms around the school. Other times behaviors were managed simply by constant verbal reminders by the adults such as reminding students to keep their hands out of the pants, or to get their thumb out of their mouth.

¨     In the classrooms there are many different strategies implemented to facilitate learning and engage the students. One point that was ingrained in me from the beginning of my training was to “know the student.” Meaning that each student is an individual and as such they each have specific interests and things they like or dislike that can help influence them. By knowing what a student likes it may be easier to engage them in an activity by centering it around an interest of that student or offering rewards/incentives that they can work towards after they have completed an academic task. Many classes use a “token economy” system for certain students in which a student earns tokens such as poker chips or stars for activities done well, and after they amount to a certain number of tokens they are rewarded with an item or activity of their choosing. The rewards can range from a gummy bear to 10 minutes of computer time.

¨     Physical re-direction is used in many different ways. It can be simple like gently touching a student’s hand when their thumb is in their mouth to remind them to take it out. It can also be more overt such as turning a student around in the right direction if they are wandering away from their classroom or group of students. In these cases it can be gentle or forceful. In my experience and observation teachers almost always try to use gentle physical redirection first along with verbal redirection and if that does not work more physical force is applied.

¨     Within Wildwood school I observed a great deal of respect from the teachers and staff for the students. The teachers show the same politeness and respect that is expected of the students to them. In my experience, when addressing or directing students I always tried to add, “please,” and, “thank you,” since it is what I would expect them to say to me (if they were verbally capable). I found that teachers and staff made an effort to be good models for the students and show them what respect is, as well as giving them respect.

¨     Within the school day activities are structured mostly in half hour increments and for a lot of the more academic activities the classes are broken up into smaller groups so students get more individualized attention. As the students get older and move up in classes some time increments could be as long as 45-60 minutes.

¨     Wildwood, as a whole, uses the same transition methods to be consistent among the students. For the most part students are directed to put their hands on their head for a count of 10, and them give themselves “a squeeze” for another count of 10. The directions may vary a little from class to class, but the idea is always the same.

¨     In the younger classes students are given play/leisure time to play with toys or read books, or go outside on the playground. During these times the staff many try to play with the students and model appropriate play. In older classes more leisure choices are added, such as computer time, library time, or music time. In one classroom I observed a student earning tokens throughout the day in order to gain UNO card playing time with one of the behavioral specialists that they liked.

¨     Each student is different and learns in different ways and speeds. A lot of the learning done within the classes is with the help of visual aids to give the students a mental picture of what they are being taught. Since not all students have developed verbal skills teachers use methods such as having them point to answers or choose between two answers during the teaching process. During writing activities a lot of “hand over hand” help is given in order to help the students get the feeling of what they are supposed to be doing when writing their name or the date. This is also the same for activities such as gluing or cutting.

¨     Throughout the course of a school day there are many “teachable” moments for each student. These moments can be simple like reminding students that “we don’t hurt friends,” or,” we don’t take friend’s toys.” They can also be more complex like teaching a lesson after a student has had an outburst and had to be isolated. After a larger event such as a tantrum it is important to take the time and simply explain to the student why their behavior was wrong and why they were given certain consequences such as being restrained or brought to a safe room.

¨     During my month of subbing I got to experience many different classroom styles and really observed what seemed to work, and what didn’t.  I found that the classes that were more organized and structured, with more expectations of the students, seemed to have fewer problems. In these particular classes students were expected to sit in their assigned seats when entering the classrooms in the morning, and every time the students came back from an activity outside the classroom. During certain times in the day the students could have toys or books, but they had to play with them in their assigned seats. These structured classes tended to work better than others where the students did not have assigned seats or were not expected to sit in them all the time. Other classes had more of a “milling around” policy in which students were free to roam the classroom, play with toys where they wanted, and were less organized with their schedules. I observed that when the students are given that much freedom to just walk around the class doing as they please during certain parts of the day, the students were less likely to listen during transition times and exhibited more behaviors. When the class had little structure it was hard to actually get the students’ attention when it was time to do an activity and there were more problems between students since they were not expected to sit at their desks. There were disputes over toys and books, rough play was more likely, and there was just an overall feeling of chaos sometimes.

Within the classrooms I also saw a difference between the teams in structured classes and unstructured classes. In classes with more structure each team member knew where they were supposed to be and at what time. There was cohesiveness between the teachers and all of the TA’s in which you could see they were all working together and on the same page. In less structured classes there was not as much as a cohesive feeling. Though the team may have been together for a long-time and work together well, there was always a slight feeling of not knowing what I was supposed to be doing. This could just be because throwing a sub into the mix confuses things a bit, but there was more of a lack of direction and scheduling. Each morning stepping into a new classroom I could immediately get a feel for how the day was going to go. In the structured classrooms I was told exactly how the classroom was run and the schedule for my day would go, I was also given a heads up about certain students and general classroom directions. In less structured classrooms I definitely felt like an outsider when I walked in. Though the schedule was on the board I was not really told where I was supposed to be and I had to do most of the asking about students behaviors and what the class day looked like.

This is not to say that there is a huge rift between structured and non-structured classes because some classes fall right in the middle. They are as structured as possible, but sometimes with certain students it is hard to keep the exact structure intact. This is completely understandable, but when there were students with more pronounced behaviors I found that other, more behaved students, were left to the wayside. In those classes I sort of made it my goal to actually pay attention to the students that did well and were not disruptive because I felt that they did not normally get a lot of praise for actually doing their work or staying in their seat and following directions.

¨     Overall my experience this past month was amazing. I gained new insight into the behaviors of the students and got to know and bond with them as individuals. I got to work with a range of students from younger to older, and presenting on all parts of the autism spectrum. Within my music therapy training at Berklee we got to work with student only in a music therapy setting, which was great. But after this experience I feel it is important as a music therapist to get to know each student outside of music. Observe their behaviors and triggers, and find out what they like and dislike. Knowing this will make me a better music therapist since I know the students on a more personal level and can apply it into music therapy sessions with them, using topics I know they enjoy and tailoring activities to not only get positive outcomes, but to challenge them when I know they can do it and help facilitate their growth not only in music but as an individual.

 Hopefully now you learned something too!!!